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Books
Digital books to support your healing journey and personal growth.
Healing MemoirA Complex Healing Journey Act I - The Prologue
Jason Koelliker
The first act in the A Complex Healing Journey book series, one of 11 acts that help share my story of going through trauma therapy and healing.
Healing MemoirDonkey Boy - The Prologue
Jason Koelliker
Donkey Boy: The Prologue follows a boy learning to read every room, carry everyone else’s needs, and hide what he cannot explain. Told in a voice that is young but not innocent, this intimate memoir traces how childhood survival becomes an adult identity—and what happens when the person holding everything together finally stops long enough to see himself.
Healing MemoirA Complex Healing Journey Act II - Chapter Won
Jason Koelliker
The Second album and collection of chapters written
Healing MemoirDonkey Boy - Before I Had Words
Jason Koellikerq
Donkey Boy: Before I Had Words returns to a childhood in 1970s Southern California, where a sister’s care, family rituals, and ordinary wonder exist alongside fighting, fear, and confusing rules. Told in an intimate voice—young but not innocent—this opening book follows a sensitive boy learning to read the world before he can explain what it makes him feel.
Healing MemoirA Complex Healing Journey Act III - Chapter True
Jason Koelliker
The third act of my Complex Healing Journey story
Healing MemoirA Complex Healing Journey Act IV - Chapter Free
Jason Koelliker
The last act and chapters in the healing journey through therapy
Healing MemoirA Complex Healing Journey Act V - Chapter Soar
Jason Koelliker
Healing MemoirA Complex Healing Journey Act VI - Chapter Dive
Jason Koelliker
Healing MemoirA Complex Healing Journey Act VII - Chapter Fix
Jason Koelliker
Healing MemoirA Complex Healing Journey Act VIII - Chapter Heaven
Jason Koelliker
Healing MemoirA Complex Healing Journey Act IX - Chapter Fate
Jason Koelliker
Healing MemoirA Complex Healing Journey Act X - Chapter Mine
Jason Koelliker
Healing MemoirA Complex Healing Journey Act XI - Chapter Zen
Jason Koelliker
Healing MemoirAnother Story to Tell
Jason Koelliker
Writing Another Story to Tell is a raw autobiographical journey through childhood abuse, addiction, fatherhood, faith, and the search for belonging. With dark humor, vivid metaphors, and unflinching honesty, Jason Koelliker revisits the experiences that shaped his need to protect and provide—and confronts how the pain he survived continues to echo through the family he loves.
Childrens HealingThe Backpack Nobody Could See
Jason Koelliker
Little Jay carries a backpack nobody can see—but he feels its weight everywhere. With a scruffy dog, a cloud of feelings, and a gentle lantern beside him, he discovers that he can take small steps and ask for company along the way. The Backpack Nobody Could See opens The Fort Between Worlds, an illustrated series for ages 6–11 about big feelings, hidden burdens, and learning we don’t have to carry them alone
Childrens HealingThe Worry Alarm That Wouldn't Turn Off
Jason Koelliker
Scout is always watching, always listening, always ready for danger—even when everything seems safe. When Little Jay discovers his loyal friend running the Fort’s Alarm Tower all alone, he begins to understand how tired a protector can become. The Worry Alarm That Wouldn’t Turn Off, Book Two of The Fort Between Worlds, is a warmly illustrated story for ages 6–11 about worry, compassion, and learning that even the bravest helpers need rest.
Healing MemoirStill Becoming
Jason Koelliker
Still Becoming is an intimate memoir of a father navigating marriage fractures, a devastating family crisis, and the childhood wounds that resurface along the way. Through therapy, faith, music, and the daily work of showing up, Jason Koelliker explores the distance between surviving and living—and what it means to build a life while healing is still unfolding.