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Innocence Wrapped in Cellophane

TikTok post — 2025-11-06 My wounded inner child is never as safe as we are programmed to believe through our delusions of safety. Self medicating exposes him in ways that we can never see or stop. One critical step on the journey is to regulate your medication. #cptsd #therapyart #partstherapy #complextrauma #healing

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Living with Complex PTSD

TikTok post — 2025-11-06 Another step along the way living with Complex PTSD. Always in danger, always on alert. the distortion and the horror is always there. #therapyart #complextrauma #healing #cptsd #hypervigilance

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TikTok post — 2025-11-07 Realities: Two very important rationale that have quickly become a beacon for my healing and understanding. This is definitely one i watch often. #cptsd #therapyart #healing #lovewillfindaway #betterlatethannever

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Read the Room

TikTok post — 2025-11-16 Read the Room: Learning to sit still is still a wrestling match with my mind. Meditation is even worse but I dont care so I still try, slowly over time I get moments if peace. A true rest for my brain that is always thinking, or at least a rest for the thinker that is always listening. #trusttheprocess #therapyart #healing #cptsd #meditation

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A Day in the Life

TikTok post — 2025-11-16 A Day in the Life: Wake up underneath the world to which I breathe. Awakened to the light that guides me, the light that brings me peace inside the storm. The light leads me through the maze, the haze and through each phase until it lays me down to sleep once more. #therapyart #complextrauma #hypervigilance #isolation #cptsd

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Survival Mode Changed

TikTok post — 2025-11-16 Survival Mode Changed: Looking up, looking in, looking wherever the light finds me. Somedays hope through imagination of what comes next is the only way I make it through the day. #cptsd #complextrauma #therapyart #meditation #healing

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Walking on Eggshells

TikTok post — 2025-11-17 Walking on Eggshells: I spent 40 years not looking at him in the mirror. I would go no where near him no matter how loud he got. No matter how bad the flashback I refused to go back. Now I sit and stare, frozen in time remembering. #fyp #exposuretherapy #cptsd #therapyart #partstherapy

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Blood in the Water

TikTok post — 2025-11-19 Blood in the Water: Sometimes the only way out is through the fire. We villify and crucify instead of connecting and sharing perspectives. It is so easy to hate and so tough to love, especially when it comes to our self. The world is full of our critic more than the people living in it. Our Critic takes the shape of others so easily, we see with our triggers not our hearts. I am learning it is better to be burned at the stake then get caught holding the torch. #healing #therapyart #cptsd

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Healing is my responsibility

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TikTok post — 2025-11-20 Reality Check: It is as true as 2 plus 2 equals 4. #cptsd #healing #redefininglove #complextrauma #fyp

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Lessons Learned

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Bipolar Healing

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TikTok post — 2025-11-22 Hope: Love is the light we see, the air we feel and the air we breate. This content found me before we left for Maui last summer. My kids did this breathwork with me at a few waterfalls once we were there. A different way to meditate that changed me forever. I hold onto this video as a prized possession so grateful that it found me. #lovewillfindaway #healing #therapyart #meditation #loveisgod

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TikTok post — 2025-11-23 The Hunting Continues: Not easy or simple to express and expose myself, at six years old it was a really bad nightmare that horrified me. I eventually learned from the movies and as faceless as I became, in my mind I was always somewhere else. #sasurvivor🖤 #letshamego #exposuretherapy #therapyart #CapCut

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TikTok post — 2025-11-27 Stranger Things: This one is a lot to process, there is alot of meaning to each of the images for me. It is a progression through the years of sexual abuse, which was 6 to 8 years old for me. I had to go to a land of make believe to survive his cat and mouse game. That make believe is what has haunted me ever sense, which is why I make so many of these videos. #complextrauma #therapyart #cptsd #healing #exposuretherapy

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No Good Deed

TikTok post — 2025-11-28 No Good Deed: The truth if these words are undeniable, but that has led soaky heartbreaks along the way. I do everything I can do to not let the pain change this part of me, including giving it to God so the pain is the point. To love is to bleed. #fyp #cptsd #remindertomyself #healing #therapyart

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The Affect if the Effect

TikTok post — 2025-11-29 The Affect if the Effect: The part I hate the most about therapy, especially exposure sessions, are the return of the nightmares. Only good part, the saving grace if you may, is that I have adult me to comfort me.

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TikTok post — 2025-12-04 Eternally Grateful: The awareness that is found in suffering is existential and I for one am very grateful for this balancing effect. I used to think I was just trained to flinch like beaten down dog but now I realize that while I was down my vision changed. It is more than paying attention, it is observing and interpreting energy. #fyp #hylervigilance #beadragon #cptsd #therapyart

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TikTok post — 2025-12-10 Wires are Crossed: Woke up this morning a bit unhinged. A rage in my belly and a tightness in my chest from the dream sequence I endured. It is not easy to capture and communicate this state of mind but here is another attempt. As dark as it may seem it is more of a cry than a scream. I rise again to face the same dragons every morning. #cptsd #therapyart #awakendbyfear #cycleofrage #CapCut

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TikTok post — 2025-12-12 Skin amd Bones: Grief is heavy, usually at its worst before an exposure therapy session. Gotta get ready for the next one but I am procrastinating. Afraid to feel and deal with the issues, effects and flashbacks. #fyp #cptsdhealing #therapyart #cptsd #complextrauma

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TikTok post — 2025-12-14 Intimacy is a black balloon, a difficult curse to live with. I am sure the more I heal the more I will feel the longing for a healthy connection. It is the gift that made all the difference, win or lose it will be everything I need as long as I can finally love myself. #learningtolove #cptsd #healing #therapyart #fyp

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Systems Theory (Kinda)

TikTok post — 2025-12-20 Systems Theory (Kinda): The system in play here is nothing short of complex, so yeah, triggers are a compounding threat. Stressors, lack of sleep, medication issues are all factors that add to the triggers until you collapse and you feel like your dancing a jig with the devil himself. It's a hopeless and endless feeling that we have to develop a system to overcome. #fyp #healing #cptsd #healingjourney #TikTokCreatorSearchInsightsIncentive

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More of the Roadmap

TikTok post — 2025-12-20 More of the Roadmap: Some great content I grabbed from a facebook page that I need in my content library. Shout out to @astoicsdaily for articulating it so well. Time to be dangerous not anonymous. #fyp #cptsd #wordstoliveby #TikTokCreatorSearchInsightsIncentive #healingjourney

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I am sure it is the fact that I am a double Capricorn (earth sign)

TikTok post — 2025-12-20 I am sure it is the fact that I am a double Capricorn (earth sign) because I have always felt home in the mountains. Especially when relaxing at the natural spings and falls. This content will give me a moment of zen when I need it most because it is a place just down the way. #healingjourney🖤 #fyp #cptsd #TikTokCreatorSearchInsightsIncentive #therapyart

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Getting Back Up

TikTok post — 2025-12-20 Getting Back Up: Needing some motivation this morning as the weight on my chest is heavy this morning. Need to fight the hopelessness and intrusive thoughts that can get me to spiral down the rabbit hole of despair. Remembering that our suffering is what strengthens us doesnt usually help but validating the darkness that it brings in this video does. It is true either way but when the emotions are dark and negative it is like stoking a dying fire. #cptsd #therapyart #healing #fyp #CapCut

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Patience is a Virtue

TikTok post — 2025-12-21 Patience is a Virtue: Having a little fun with myself with this content. I need to hang in there to understand my journey over these last 14 months of trauma therapy and meds. It was really empty and lonely at first, but then I felt safe enough to make it through to processing. Integration should be just beyond the horizon but for now I will just breathe under heaven's sky. #trauma #healing #healing #TikTokCreatorSearchInsightsIncentive #fyp

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No Holds Barred

TikTok post — 2025-12-21 No Holds Barred: I have had plenty of time for acceptance, at least of the diagnosis. Accepting that fear is what stands in my way is worse on my blood pressure than on my ego. What stands on the other side of fear is represented well by the whale equivalent of a middle finger. #fyp #therapyart #cptsd #conquoryourfear #healingjourney🖤

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Free Will

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TikTok post — 2025-12-23 Beyond the Horizon: Well, look at this Old Dog learning new tricks. I guess the dragon will be turning into a wizard for his next trick. It will take time, but self mastery is the key. The answer has always been inside the boy, he has been guarded for too long. #fyp #menmotivation #selfdevelopment #TikTokCreatorSearchInsightsIncentive #fyp

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Parts Therapy 101

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Glass Ceilings

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Onwards and Upwards

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Too sensitive

TikTok post — 2025-12-24 Too sensitive: It is crazy how this sensitivity that I have always had is a trauma response. I have had to say my whole life, "sorry I am so intense. I feel things more for some reason." At least I am not alone in this and I am not ashamed of how I feel. #innerhealing #selfgrowth #CapCut #cptsd #fyp

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Doom and Gloom

TikTok post — 2025-12-24 Doom and Gloom: That dreaded day is almost here, everyone's favorite day of the year. The emotions I carry are abandonment and hopelessness no matter what happens. I will enjoy my kids and do my best not to get in trouble for my mood. #fyp #cptsd #TikTokCreatorSearchInsightsIncentive #selfgrowth #innerhealing

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Collection of Lights

TikTok post — 2025-12-24 Collection of Lights: An educational video for me when I need the reminders. Funny how awakening and healing are so intertwined. They must be closely related or exploited, either way they are connected. #innerhealing #selfgrowth #cptsd #fyp #TikTokCreatorSearchInsightsIncentive

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Say the Quiet Part Out Loud

TikTok post — 2025-12-24 Say the Quiet Part Out Loud: For all of my life, I have shamed myself for the effect the abuse had on my faith. It is impossible to deny this shadow, but it is not one that I can get rid of on my own. I have fought like hell over the years to protect and treasure the small piece of the mustard seed that remained. God is the only way it is still there, and love is the only reason why it is still alive. #cptsd #fyp #TikTokCreatorSearchInsightsIncentive #SelfImprovement #mindset

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The Price is Right

TikTok post — 2025-12-24 The Price is Right: Been living with this anxiety my whole life pretty much, since 6 years old. I wish I would have pain attention to it and the risks a heck of a lot sooner. What does anxiety cost and how does it collect? For me, like so many others, it has resulted in problem list of health conditions as long as Santa's list. It has also impacted every relationship I have ever had. #mindset #SelfImprovement #TikTokCreatorSearchInsightsIncentive #fyp #cptsd

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Paradigm Shift in Mindset

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Breakdowns and Breakups

TikTok post — 2025-12-24 Breakdowns and Breakups: Figured I would start with synonyms in title to help clarify my statement here. Growth is painful and never easy or expected and planned for. Not real growth becomes that only comes from suffering. So today I am grateful for all the horribly painful breakthroughs these last 5 years. #cptsd #fyp #mindset #selfimprovement ##TikTokCreatorSearchInsightsIncentive

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Keep it Simple Son

TikTok post — 2025-12-24 Keep it Simple Son: The words sting a bit, but it makes a whole lot of sense when your read them. I could have used this in my teen years when I would still occasionally see my abuser. But I never did really think about trying to understand why he hurt me. Guess I never really cared, I have always been too busy dying from the poison cause there was no antidote. So a gentle reminder to focus on the poison not the snake. #fyp #TikTokCreatorSearchInsightsIncentive #selfimprovement #mindset #sasurvivor🖤

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Eternal Struggle

TikTok post — 2025-12-25 Eternal Struggle: For me there has always been the other side of the coin. Duality is easy for me to get because it has always been there. Doesn't help, it is still hell but I just hope one day I will be able to balance. #mindset #selfimprovement #TikTokCreatorSearchInsightsIncentive #fyp #cptsd

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Call Me Crazy

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Haunting Holidays

TikTok post — 2025-12-25 Haunting Holidays: When I was a little kid I liked this move called Silent Night Deadly Night. It was horrible and B rated at best but it was the first time I had ever seen Christmas tainted with evil. Since that was how I felt my life was it was a pretty funny movie to me. I like this content because it makes me feel safe when I am not feeling very safe. Just like that movie, I have already survived worse. #cptsd #sasurvivor🖤 #fyp #ScaryChristmas #TreesAreTheLungsoftheEarth

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Discover Life's True Pupose One Step at a Time

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TikTok post — 2025-12-29 Sea of Tranquility: Just a dream sequence for me to enjoy when I need a pause for the cause. So if you enjoy this, then vibe out with me when you need a moment to relax. #CapCut #peacefulvibes #relaxingscenes #fyp #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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Listening is a Superpower

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Follow the Light

TikTok post — 2025-12-29 Follow the Light: About this time 4 years ago, my family and I were all sick with Covid and I messed up my back. Worse than that, we were all emotionally fried from the trauma and the therapy and the legal battles let alone the fear that plagued 2021 for us. We also had hellatious rain and wind storms, then a part of a tree came crashing down on our roof and broke our heater exhaust pipe. The storms turned to snow and we spent the next week in our living room by the fireplace and had a few space heaters going until we lost power from the storms. Before you know it, trees were coming down everywhere up here and people lost their homes and cars. So a nightmare for 10 days while recovering from Covid and storm damage, which is how I hurt my back. A long story to remember why after 44 years I finally broke and what it took to break through the wall. A burning bush would have been less painful but either way I heard the call and saw the light. I have slowly been following it ever since and finishing the job of tearing down the walls inside protecting my wounded inner child. I end this year with a new place for him to live. A place where he can just be a kid and when he remembers I can comfort and heal him, through the grace of God. #healingjourney #selfdiscovery #cptsd #fyp #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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Macrodosing

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Calling a Spade a Spade

TikTok post — 2025-12-30 Calling a Spade a Spade: Accountability is not easy but necessary with this condition. The flashbacks lead to rage, without a single drop of awareness so to be accountable is the first step. The next 10,000 are humiliating and transformative. One day, one step at a time. #cptsd #healing #healingjourney #fyp #selfdiscovery

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Slow and Steady

TikTok post — 2025-12-30 Slow and Steady: There are so many great belief systems out there and there is something I like about most of them. I love to overlay them like these two pictures, a message from astrology with an image of creation that share the same message with different dimension. Both of these images carry a reminder to slow down and process. As ready as I think I am for integration I won't get there if I don't continue to process all this pain. #healingjourney #selfdiscovery #cptsd #natureheals #fyp

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TikTok post — 2026-01-01 Comfortably Numb: Self medicating is all to common for people with severe trauma, especially when experienced in early childhood. No one survives the abuse without something for the pain. There is no medicinal cure, the source of the pain requires healing through self-love. It takes a higher power to get there, because addiction is a symptom of abandoning Self. #cptsd #sasurvivor🖤 #hardhitting #awareness #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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Universal Flashbacks

TikTok post — 2026-01-02 Universal Flashbacks: They hit like a ton of bricks from every angle and through every medium, always at the worst time. I have fought them like a knight slaying a dragon all my life until this last year. Now it ain't pretty but I can isolate and spend time with that kid that was abused and abandoned until they pass. #cptsd #innerchildhealing #healingjourney #fyp #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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Light of Day

TikTok post — 2026-01-02 Light of Day: If you have seen the movie, then you will get the tie-in. If not this message hopefully resonates just the same. My pursuit is unstoppable and relentless, just like in the movie. So yeah I am going to die trying to simply align with my purpose in this life, which I cannot do without healing my trauma wounds. Starting Trauma therapy was a game changer and I have support to match this relentless commitment to myself to overcome the evil that has plagued my life. So yeah this is my fight song. Couple that with the reminders of my next stepping stones to integration and Vegas Odds are in my favor going into the new year. #healingjourney #motivation #awareness #fyp #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

TikTok post — 2026-01-02 Reverb with Distortion: Complex PTSD is painful, especially when triggered into a full blown panic attack. I was doing ok until the shortness of breath and that lasted all of 20 seconds before my entire body panicked. It took me a good 10 minutes to catch my breath, and as I did, I started to ground myself. I hustled out of there and to my car, almost didn't make it, but the tears just started falling once I was safe in the car. The reverb and distortion sitting here 6 hours later is no joke. It feels alot like static electricity from the inside out. Focusing to type is so difficult and I am so tired, how the hell did I survive this hell for this long? Emotionally I am handling the inner critic well but not the hopelessness and fear of why I triggered that bad. On the upside, there was NO collateral damage and my test results are good. The Heart is sound at least.FML #CapCut #triggeredstate #cptsd #panicattack #fyp

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Anxious Attached

TikTok post — 2026-01-03 Anxious Attached: Lovebombing is a trauma response that finally makes sense. I have spent years of my life stuck in that trauma response with pretty much every woman I have ever loved. Funny thing is I used to think I was just a hopeless romantic and very passionate. That was definitely a web of lies hiding my obsessive compulsion to be the perfect husband and boyfriend in past relationships. I do have a romantic side and I love now with an awareness and intention instead of with fear and protection. That doesn't mean that true love wont save me, it just has to say that true love needs to be with Self. Without that I am incapable of true love for anyone or anything else. #growthmindset #selfimprovement #spiritualawakening #mindfullness #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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Worlds Apart

TikTok post — 2026-01-03 Worlds Apart: I thought I was heading into the Abyss but changed direction and starting heading into the son. I didn't think she would stay or that we would make it, I was all alone anyways as the attachment wound was over. I still don't know on most days if we are going to make it. There is a lot more awakening going on and she may be turning away from the Abyss. Hopefully she is heading my way. #spiritualawakening #cptsd #therapyart #selfdiscovery #fyp

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New Found Glory

TikTok post — 2026-01-03 New Found Glory: Despite the trend of justifying hate through protecting your peace, I am going to throw some content in the mix that will help me when I need to defend and protect. Instead if living in this mode, I reserve it for when I need it. I have never really been one to say much, I prefer action over words and silence over choas. We all need reminders and encouragement of our strength when someone is trying to knock us down so this is one for me. It includes a spiritual context to also remind me to stay true to myself in the process: accountability, boundaries, and grace. Maybe this is why people don't like my boundaries. #fyp #therapyart #cptsd #spiritualawakening #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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Consistency is the Key

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Circular Reasoning (Sarcasm)

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Guiding Light

TikTok post — 2026-01-03 Guiding Light: A bit of a cheat sheet or roadmap to help with triggers. The cPTSD reactions in my brain make it really difficult to think clearly and see connections, which is normally a superpower. So when I am still in the kill zone of my triggered state, I need breadcrumbs like this to guide my way back to the land of rational fear. #healingjourney #growthmindset #selfimprovement #cptsd #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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Contents Under Pressue

TikTok post — 2026-01-03 Contents Under Pressue: There are parts of me that are definitely darker and scarier than the others. Adolescent, teenage, young adult me was hell on wheels. Not fearless, more like he had a death wish. He also had a way of facing fear in the face and laughing that I have forgotten. How to stay human yet able to face the fear that is trapped in my body will be a transformation much like this content. The dragon will burn and the wizard will use our superpowers to no end. These parts of me come out when provoked, which is whenever I feel overpowered, outsmarted, manipulated and attacked. I am getting better at quietly becoming who I need to be without burning down the whole village. But, this is my warning content to myself that I need to be the master of my parts or I will let us down and our world is going to burn. #growthmindset #healingjourney #therapyart #cptsd #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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IFS in Simple Terms

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Kryptonite

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Gravitational Pull

TikTok post — 2026-01-04 Gravitational Pull: No more repeated relationships, the Veil has been breached finally. Cool thing is there might be some eventual alignment with our planetary systems in the near future. Star alignment is clear for me, my journey continues into the depths of the three phases. I have 6 new ones to complete in parallel through IFS so I know my trajectory for now. Hers is shifting quickly and I am hopeful she is at least turned towards light, she could have at least one eye open too. It is nearly impossible and definitely improbable for middle aged adults to accept and heal from complext childhood trauma. Especially if it is more manipulation and emotional abuse by both parents. Even the more serious forms of abuse are tough but no one can handle the guilt of shaming your parents when it was "not that bad" or they were just "struggling single parents. At least not until we know we have unresolved trauma. Does that mean that we are still meant for each other? Or did we just trauma bond without even knowing it and created a space for us to fight for protection and safety the last 22 1/2 years. Time will tell, I know how I feel and why now, so I await with an open heart. Awareness and healing work with my anxious attachment style changed the game for me. Right now, I can only pray she sees the wound underneath her avoidance attachment style. Instead, though, I just pray for her peace and healing no matter what that means. I see her wounded little abandoned self as clearly as I see my own, and my heart breaks for her and me both. #innerchildhealing #healingjourney #coregulate #cptsd #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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Final Answer

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Fake it till you Break it

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Daily Intention

TikTok post — 2026-01-04 Daily Intention: I have been really focused on setting a daily intention for some time now. I am working it into my daily check-in process where I set my priorities, identify something I am grateful for, read a scripture, say a prayer, and then set my intention for the day. Today I work in reverse because this intention is needed to get me up and able to face my day. #fyp #selfcare #awareness #healingjourney #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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Light at the End of the Tunnel

TikTok post — 2026-01-04 Light at the End of the Tunnel: No matter how dark this life has been for me I have held on to my hope in tomorrow at least up until this point. So to help me get back up and try again despite mutiple failures, I create and get lost in this content. It is a beautiful reminder of the journey we are all on together. #AICreate #fyp #hope #healingjourney #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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Frickin Laser Beam

TikTok post — 2026-01-05 Frickin Laser Beam: Sometimes you have set your world on fire, beat em to the punch. I will wait until all the crows are gone at least. That is how intense it feels once I am laser focused on something someone said that hurt my feelings. I can get so heated that I will ignite and burn anything or anyone within a 50 yard radius. The abuse that gets triggered is not easy to explain but for anyone who knows, it is better to just leave us alone. There are quite a few of these triggers, I made a list and have been working on them one by one. Digging all the way down to the root core wound whenever possible. Tonight I chose to sit and make this video instead of focusing in on the situation that triggers me. Quiet, lonely and peaceful just like I need it. #selfawareness #AICreate #healingjourney #cptsd #fyp

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What goes Up, must Come Down

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Hope Floats

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Let Go and Let God

TikTok post — 2026-01-05 Let Go and Let God: A great reminder not to force things and let the next steps come to me. A great exercise in faith, both in myself and in love. I know my next steps are based on consistency with points of integration. They will lead me to my next steps when ready. #fyp #HealingJourney #selfawareness #mindfullness #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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TikTok post — 2026-01-08 Mountain Life: Been living up in the mountains since 2003. We are up at 6200 square ft so we get plenty of snow and fresh air to go with nature all around us. It is a blessing I have been thanking God for the entire time. It brought me closer to God, kept me open to love through the connection I feel to nature. Whether its a deer encounter that is serene and peaceful or a coyote or bear siting that fills me with a fearful respect, I connect and feel home here. Dont get me wrong. I love the beach and could live Aloha, but I would need seclusion and safety, and islands are too small for that brah. #mountainliving #selflove #fyp #dailyinspo #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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Filling Time

TikTok post — 2026-01-08 Filling Time: Other side of the coin for a previous post down deep in the list. My profile is my doom scrolling paradise, somewhere in the 100's is a video titled Killing Time. I am learning and feeling a bit more like I am filling the time now. Instead of wasting away, I am existing in a state of restful transformation and I feel like I can not only see and think more clearly, I am developing skills beyond my own imagination. This is an uplifting post but just as lonely as the other. Difference is I really am starting to enjoy myself. #fyp #empowerment #selfgrowth #selfcare #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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Truth Be Told

TikTok post — 2026-01-08 Truth Be Told: A good little manual to help put a voice to things I have suffered with as silently as I could my whole life. Or at least as far back as I can remember. This is not an excuse or a way to avoid being accountable. Instead it is exactly that. Being accountable. This is a condition I live with because I was abused as a kid from age 6 to 8 and then nothing more was ever said or done about it. Textbook connection of A to B. I struggled to accept it for a while but I embrace it now. It is a voice for my suffering and a way to finally overcome it once and for all. Why this time you ask? Simple, this time I dont need it to go away, I just need to manage my triggered state and I am getting g really good at that processing part. Only when I have to still but that is the next rung on the ladder. Have a process to process. #fyp #cptsd #selfgrowth #mindfullness #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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Paranoid

TikTok post — 2026-01-08 Paranoid: Buckle up for this one. Underneath the hypervigilance is a deeply rooted fear and paranoia. I have felt this way since I can remember. I'm always feeling like there is something going on. I am about to get hurt by someone close to me. It has been at the root of many problems in my life, from trusting people to manic depressive states where I lose my grip a little bit. This content is my way of screaming this paranoia out loud and to sit with it until I understand the fear underneath. #fyp #selfdiscovery #therapyart #cptsd #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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Where the Day Takes You

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Use Your Illusion

TikTok post — 2026-01-08 Use Your Illusion: My illusion in this life has been what keeps leading me to trauma bonding instead of healthy relationships. This painting and song provides a great metaphor for my illusion. I have fatansized love, bombed the hell out of it because it is a psychedelic drug that takes away my pain. I love intimately to numb and aleeve my pain, but the only way it works is it has to be real and connecting, as crazy as that sounds. But makes sense when I consider I have been in a monogamous marriage for almost 24 years. Shadow work is done when you are in your darker feelings. It isnt easy learning to process those feelings instead of react to them but it helps so much. I really dont know today what tomorrow brings, I just know that I cant keep chasing the dragon. #fyp #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive #AICreate #traumabonding #lovebombing💔

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See the Forest from the Trees

TikTok post — 2026-01-08 See the Forest from the Trees: Awareness of the truth that we are not our thoughts isn't easy to develop. It almost seems like self abandonment for a minute or two. But once you accept or believe in the science of who we are, it makes logical sense. That awareness in itself is very powerful, almost like walking through the veil. It is definitely one of the ways I am indifferent with myself so I am learning how to be the thinker, not his thoughts. #awareness #emotionalintelligence #selfgrowth #fyp #AICreate

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Moody Blues

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TikTok post — 2026-01-10 Faces of Death: As I sit and process deeply rooted shame and fear I am reminded with every skipped hearttbeat that I am not my trauma. I am not my abuse, I am many things but not that. I am strong, I am wise, I am powerful, I am all things in love. So I run towards the Son as fast as I possibly can and leave the fear and shame behind me. #AICreate #fyp #healing #cptsd #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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TikTok post — 2026-01-11 Stargate: The portal is ope and I made it to the gate in time, better late than never. I will have to hurry up and wait to see if she is going to join me or not. I can't go backward and be that shell of a man anymore, I really hope she makes it. #fyp #AICreate #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive #cptsd #healingjourney💜

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Aesop Rock

TikTok post — 2026-01-12 Aesop Rock: The fairy tale is as old as time, your one true love is out there waiting for you. Then we grow up and realize that we are no Prince charming so abuse is what we get and give. Unless we break the cycle, grow the hell up and then man the hell up and become the heartbroken fool once more. This song has one of the most loving melodies and it makes me cringe evertime I hear it. #AICreate #fyp #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive #hardtolove #acceptance

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Ideation Vibration

TikTok post — 2026-01-12 Ideation Vibration: A frequency that is very risky and taboo to emit is that of ideation. Especially when it is just a dream of the grandeur of tomorrow. The dreamstate, romanticizing and fantasy mindset is not being present and it is a deceiving gateway drug. So this content is a reminder that if this is your vibration then stop and listen. Learn why it is you dream of escape, of a better experience in the next life. Today, for me, it is a struggle of accepting and waiting. Being patient and resting, letting the time to process take priority. I have to fight this weariness and exhaustion from the nightmares and flashbacks. I am making progress but have more fear about what is around the bend than excitement. The visual reminds, rewinds, and realigns me to hope, the music helps me listen to my shadows. #healingjourney💜 #shadowwork #cptsd #fyp #AICreate

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Reverse Logic

TikTok post — 2026-01-13 Reverse Logic: No one gets through this life avoiding all the pain and suffering it brings. We would like to think that some do, with their lifestyles of the rich and famous facade or Norman Rockwell family illusion. It is not the case, even the most powerful that we villify and shame are not immune. We all share in a collective consciousness and the more a person takes the more that person is in pain and trying to remove or avoid it. That is the upsidedown way to understanding a simple yet powerful truth. The way out of the quicksand is by feeling and listening to our pain not removing or avoiding it. #AICreate #fyp #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive #selflovejourney #healingjourney💜

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Healing Decisions

TikTok post — 2026-01-14 Healing Decisions: Some of the toughest choices I have made in my life have come in the last 14 months of healing. Don't get it twisted, there are a lot of other tough choices I have had to make in my life. These latest ones though have been isolating and diminishing unlike the others, especially from the outside looking in. #loneliness #mentalheath #AICreate #fyp #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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Pirate Radio

TikTok post — 2026-01-14 Pirate Radio: Tune in and listen, do you hear them say to love them tomorrow? God is worthy of love and praise, it is free will that leads to our suffering and they have put a way home out there for everyone........problem is acceptance and beliefs but hey one step at a time. #relateable #empathy #selflovejourney #fyp #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive

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Contents Under Pressure

TikTok post — 2026-01-14 Contents Under Pressure: It is impossible to be the diamond you were created to be with CPTSD. Unless you put in the work and heal from it, because you have to let go of the fear and protection. Guarded is how it is often described to me about me. That is the Pressure that we need to transform, feeling that fear and letting go of it develops a new freedom and that sparks the light. The even better part? Through new and old connections you help others transform as well. So yeah, be yourself and to hell with what anyone thinks about it. #fyp #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive #goodvibes #selflovejourney #healingjourney💜

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Manifested

TikTok post — 2026-01-14 Manifested: Not a bad turn of astronomical events and its about damn time. These intentions are music to my weary soul and it feels like a real shift in frequency is in place. All it took was grace. #selflovejourney #healingjourney💜 #uplifting #tiktokcreatorsearchinsightsincentive #fyp

TikTok post — 2026-01-17 Drowning Pool: The awakening process with cptsd was horribly painful and difficult for me. I had to go through more betrayal and abandonment to finally face what happened to me. The most difficult moments were when I cried out for help and was left to drown on my own. Breaking in these moments, drowning in my own past, helped me finally scream and cry and release all this stored up betrayal and abandonment. They left me to drown, but in that struggle, I learned how to swim. #AICreate #healingjourney💜 #cptsd #fyp #shadowwork

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TikTok post — 2026-01-18 Love Song: This one is a cry, a scream, and a loving embrace for the only one I feel safe with. She is the only one who sees me and can still love me. She is far from perfect but she sees me perfectly and now that we are establishing safety, there is an opportunity for healing squared. #AICreate #fyp #cptsd #healingjourney #coregulate

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Rocky Roads

TikTok post — 2026-01-19 Rocky Roads: I remember as I started the CPTSD healing journey 15 months ago how lost and hopeless I felt. I was so buried in shame and guillt that it was suffocating my power. But now, after all this time grounding and processing, I feel my power finally, and it is as warm and as loving as it is safe and protecting. It has been a rocky road, and there are plenty of rocks ahead, but I know I can both endure and overcome them now. #AICreate #fyp #cptsd ##healingjourney #sasurvivor🖤

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Hello Darkeness My Old Friend

TikTok post — 2026-01-19 Hello Darkeness My Old Friend: Embracing my darkness has been just as important to my healing as anything else. This content uses my darkness as a lens to look at the three phases of healing. The first is grounding, where I learned to feel safe despite living in a nightmare. The second is processing which helped me see the forrest from the trees despite being in a haunted castle secluded from civilization. The third is integration, the last phase where my unhealthy trauma response slowly dies. #AICreate #fyp #healingjourney #cptsd #sasurvivor🖤

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Use Your Delusion

TikTok post — 2026-01-20 Use Your Delusion: Terms like black and white thinking, projecting, and seeing through a shame lens are common ways to describe the effect CPTSD has on my perception. It really does feel like the Twilight Zone most of the time. Like I am always on the outside looking in or more accurately vibrating at a different frequency. I think the best I have done is harmonize with other frequencies because I vibrate uniquely to protect myself. I change my vibration constantly, like an AM radio that never seems to lock in on a station. The years before this one I was a supernova in my own universe because of the self sabotage this perception leads to. Then once reality crumbles I fall into a land of make believe thinking I am fighting the forces of darkness instead my own shame. I can at least recognize it for what it is. #AICreate #cptsd #healingjourney💜 #fyp #therapyart

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You Break You Buy

TikTok post — 2026-01-20 You Break You Buy: This content signifies my transition from self hate to self love. Like the letters I burned that I wrote to my abuser and the one I wrote to my daughter's (who is lucky he took his own life before I went back on my promise to my wife). I choose me, not fear or shame or the anger and rage they create. I will not abandon myself for any reason and in doing so my baby girl, who is all grown up and just crushing life, will continue to do the same. #AICreate #fyp #selflove #haters #protectivedad

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Rare Breed

TikTok post — 2026-01-21 Rare Breed: The Moon in Capricorn has some really cool aspects to my chart, being a double Capricorn (Sun, Ascending). I have a crazy astrological profile, but I fall into that category in a lot of ways. INFJ, Heyoka, I seem to end up in these incredibly rare and messed up design caregories that make me feel hopeless. I see stuff like this and it really just makes me want fly into the Sun. But then I take a deep breath and try to see some hope in tomorrow because I am present in today. #AICreate #fyp #cptsd #infj #heyokaempath

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Daytona 500

TikTok post — 2026-01-21 Daytona 500: This is number 500 and that is still a bit unreal but these videos really help me. I figured I would celebrate with a little reveal to connect a bit more with all my healers. Not something you will see often because my content is always driven my a message TO myself. Luckily, this content is true to form and reminds me that out loud was the only way I finally started to heal 🍻 #cptsd #infj #heyokaempath #christislove #fyp

TikTok post — 2026-01-23 Curiosity Killed the Cat: Like the lights of Vegas, this content is projecting light to capture the senses. What is it that we really want and why is it never, ever enough. What we are longing for, deep down is beyond us until we realize it is within us. I am sending out a message of gratitude in the face of ineptitude to help me remember what it is I am really after. It is cosmic, celestial, heavenly, and every other word I can come up with that solves this mystery once and for all. Meaning, we all want the meaning, the point, th why. It is the one thing that means the most, our why. Have you found it yet? I have found what I believe but until i know I will always be searching. #AICreate #cptsd #HealingJourney #fyp #therapyart

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Respect the Ocean

TikTok post — 2026-01-24 Respect the Ocean: I lost a mentor today, I was supposed to meet with him next week. He was a great leader, the easiest to connect with because he was as down to earth and as relateable as can be. I watches hundres of people mourn and grieve together for this man. That is legacy and his was full of love as everyone proved that was there. Pretty powerful stuff, grief is heavy and it hurts but that tells you everything about this one man. So this one is for him and all the people we have lost, I hope they are loving the view. #AICreate #griefandloss #mentorship #legacy #fyp

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If The Shoe Fits

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Read the Book, Not the Cover

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If Sadness Were a Town

TikTok post — 2026-01-25 If Sadness Were a Town: This is an expression of sadness that I have sat in a lot today. I have this one playing on repeat because it hits in multiple ways. Thinking about those I have lost sometimes is just as healing as it is sad. Call me crazy but I am actually grateful for the grief I carry because that means I have been loved. I love this sunset and song as much as I miss the ones who are gone. #fyp #griefandloss #therapyart #journaling #sadness

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To Thine Own Self Be True

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The Climb

TikTok post — 2026-01-26 The Climb: You don't know the hell I've been through. You don't know the price I've paid. Viral lyrics on this platform that we can all relate to. Just like the Ted Lasso quote, "all that time no one was a least bit curious." I have climbed out of some incredibly deep and dark hell holes. I have overcome abuse in all forms, through all phases of my life. The worst thing anyone can do is underestimate me. I was hardened like a piece of coal by the hatred and worst in others. I turned that suffering into gifts that are not very common or understood. My brain and nervous system have been a hindrance until now only because I did not understand how they function because of the trauma. Now I do and I can use them to help. #AICreate #fyp #cptsd #healingjourney #fightthegoodgfight

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Time Out

TikTok post — 2026-01-26 Time Out: This AI experiment is a really cool result using the album cover for the song. It reminds me of the creepy Mr Rodgers animation so it is perfect for what I am feeling and healing today. It's been a bad day, we all have them, nightmares were rough,(actually vividly remeber them) and after a very long week of little sleep I got very little once again. But like this animation, I am safe as my monsters flare up because I am not them. I observe and report, serve and protect. This is accountable, I sat and processed for a few hours and now its time to get back to the present. #fightthegoodgfight #healingjourney #cptsd #fyp #therapyart

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Timeless Memory

TikTok post — 2026-01-26 Timeless Memory: The wandering with purpose is almost protective in a way. It is time that is lost, a message from long ago. Each time I watch it all I can see are the shadows of my early childhood before the abuse started. It is sadness that breathes the same frequency as the singing. This content is a Timeless memory that lives in the shadows of my mind. #AICreate #therapyart #fyp #cptsd #healingjourney

TikTok post — 2026-01-28 High Life: This is it, the song, my one and only. We have been together for a long time now, starting in Junior High so since 1987. That was the year I started smoking cigarettes and drinking as well as doing drugs. It helped with the nightmares, the self abuse and the flashbacks. The music got real and I fell in love with heavy metal. Especially Ozzy, he was a poet really. Suicide solution saved me one night when I almost intentionally drove myself into incoming traffic. Then I met this song and the Light and the dark in me came alive at the same time. I am a madman and this content shares why. I dont care how much I suffer, love is the way. I choose love, which means I accept duality and perception and the limitless possibilities. I see a lot of people focused on the external, it is the norm in our society. I choose to be a madman, I was shown what the absence of love leads to at a very young age. That hurt so bad I dont want myself or anyone else to go through that again. The imagery in this one in intense and provoking, even triggering, to connect with the intensity of madness I carry. I go through this life like a blind person reading brail because of this naive and childhood belief in love. Or at least that is the common perception of my madness. #fyp #cptsd #HealingJourney #sasurvivor🖤 #madness

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Open Up and Say Ah

TikTok post — 2026-01-28 Open Up and Say Ah: Therapy day, exposure session once again. Prayed ahead of time and definitely got the help I needed to really connect this time. My therapist had me stop organically throughout the exposure to process both cognitively and somaticallly. That was crazy intense and unpacked so much more than I have been able to process before. Hella difficult and created a lot tears and chest pain but it brought me back futher and closer to my wounded inner child. #AICreate #sasurvivor🖤 #cptsd #fyp #exposuretherapy

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Seeing is Believing

TikTok post — 2026-01-28 Seeing is Believing: This song is between me and my cptsd and this message is to help call out the struggle. Flies have crazy vision and that is similar to what i mean with Prisms. It hurts to see this much at once so I need to learn how to compartmentalize better. We see intention, energy, trauma, actions and words. Connecting the dots is exhausting. #fyp #cptsd #HealingJourney #emotionalwriting #selfabandonment

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Helping Hand

TikTok post — 2026-01-29 Helping Hand: This one is difficult and healing for me, I watch it and see both my wife's and daughter's wounded inner child. My darkness is there to help them both. I have learned so I will share and hopefully that helps them avoid the darkness more. What will I share? That there are core wounds and feelings underneath the pain and anger. The shame and abandonment is the darkness for me, for some others it is just abandonment and that is close enough to hell for anyone. Either way, learning to love yourself starts here where you feel the worst. #AICreate #fyp #HealingJourney #cptsd #therapyart

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Silence is Deadly

TikTok post — 2026-01-29 Silence is Deadly: Living with the secrets of my abuse was a terminal illness that was self inflicted. Any chance or version of myself that was healthy never made it to 21 years old. I have been through so many transformations in my lifetime and each time this outer shelf takes on more damage. This image without a word shares how it feels to carry the abuse in silence. That abandonment, that silence is deadly. #cptsd #fyp #sufferinsilence #therapyart #HealingJourney

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Aces High

TikTok post — 2026-01-29 Aces High: This one is more complex than I can cover in one writing because it has layers to it. I have tried to heal and failed forward so many times in my life that all I can do is carry on and keep trying. This time, although I may overshoot the target again, I at least know why. If I can remain still and steadfast in managing my trauma response, the clarity will make the difference. If I fail again, I will carry on flying too high until I fly into the Son. #AICreate #fyp #cptsd #HealingJourney #sasurvivor🖤

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Sleeping Pills

TikTok post — 2026-01-29 Sleeping Pills: This was my day yesterday after therapy, I crashed hard in the early evening and actually took a nap. I don't nap, well I can't physically, but it is not without trying or wanting. When I try to sleep during the day, it triggers a fear in my body that is like that sudden sensation of falling we can all get as we are drifting off to sleep. I get this panic in my chest just like when I try to meditate. The moment I physically start to relax, it triggers a fear reaponse that I can not control or deny. All this said, my journey is leading me to a place that feels a lot like the video at the end. I am walking a tight rope, a bridge over troubled waters, and I am moving forward. But one wrong step, and I will fall to my doom. This is trauma therapy, the exhaustion and fear is beyond my control at times, but it continues to diminish with each step. #AICreate #traumatherapy #cptsd #fyp #HealingJourney

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Sharing is Caring

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Its a Kind of Magic

TikTok post — 2026-01-30 Its a Kind of Magic: This is where I am heading and where I am at. Master of my emotions through somatic techniques that bring me peace like I've never felt before. If I were king this little house is all I need. When I rest and sit still, this is where I will be. #AICreate #therapyart #healingoutloud #cptsd #fyp

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Creation Ideation

TikTok post — 2026-01-30 Creation Ideation: So if this gives you the chills like it does me (every time), then comment back. Every single time, chills on the back of neck. Go and look up what Lukas Nelson says about this guy. He really is special. Another beautiful reminder of the love in creation. There are so many marvels that tell us we are loved and made in love, regardless of the equal amount of reasons mankind shows us we are not worthy of love. This picture with the blood red filter on the moon gives me chills. The sun and the mountains and the lake and the trees, its heaven for me and the view from my meditation house tucked into the mountain side. #AICreate #fyp #therapyart #cptsd #HealingJourney

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Be the Change

TikTok post — 2026-01-30 Be the Change: Peace of mind was something I was chasing since I was 13 and started using drugs. I used to draw it everywhere, that and a few other interesting statements. I got loud and proud real quick, didn't give a you know what about nothing. Fearless and a deathwish, I searched for peace of mind. It's pretty ironic because all I had to do to find it was embrace the change. To myself, let that sink in. #HealingJourney #cptsd #fyp #selfgrowth #bethechange

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Birthright

TikTok post — 2026-02-04 Birthright: A human falicy as old as time, a line that is twice the lie. Humans have long felt birthrights regardless of domain (earthly and heavenly). It is just as easy for me to say my birthright is to sit besides God's throne or my own. When in all honesty, the only birthright that we have is free agency. I dont create this content to stand up and claim my birthright. No this is a lesson given through my own brand of sarcasm. I choose to be a conduit and connect to love, just like my father before me and his father before him. #AICreate #fyp #healingjourney #cptsd #loveisgod

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Smoke Signals

TikTok post — 2026-02-04 Smoke Signals: If I am being honest, I have been trauma bonding in every romantic relationship I have ever had. Been married twice and a string of committed relationships before then that were just one collosal failure after another. My wife and I have 23 years together this summer and I think the secret to our success is the trauma bond wont let us leave. I think I was blessed to find someone who would understand my wounds because theirs were just as deep. We are both learning as we heal ourselves who we are and who we've been. Anyone who falls in love with a projection instead of a person should connect well with this one. Especially the end. #AICreate #therapyart #fyp #healingjourney #cptsd

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Swamp Thing

TikTok post — 2026-02-04 Swamp Thing: A metaphorical way to share what the emotional flashbacks are like. I watched a lot of movies as a kid so there are a few references in here. Creature from the Black Lagoon and the Neverending Story should be obvious to my Gen X friends out there. They hit you quick and the sadness just cranks up to 1000. It is a struggle that is definitely not right. Ground. Process. Integrate. #AICreate #cptsd #therapyart #fyp #healingjourney

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Self Soothe

TikTok post — 2026-02-04 Self Soothe: Nothing triggers my abondonment more than my anxious attachment issues. I feel a lot better these days but the moments that triggered me just in the last year alone are still very vivid. This content captures that pain so well that it is exposure therapy for me. The lesson to remeber? Avoidance is a form of emotional abuse and neglect. Anxious Attachment is a form of emotional abuse and neglect. #AICreate #therapyart #fyp #attachmentissues #lightinthedarkness

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Theater of Pain

TikTok post — 2026-02-04 Theater of Pain: This is an instant favorite for me, because it makes me laugh and cry. This teenage wasteland of mine grew into a vast world of its own that now at 51 I have finally make it out of. It is a sarcastic way to say I am out to my own prison so I paired it with a song that always made me feel alive. I know three very important things now. 1. love 2. love 3. love and that is all I got because it is all I need. To any part or version of myself future self reading this, all we had to do was tell our story and let go of the shame. Nothing about the abuse or the abandonment was your fault. #AICreate #healingjourney #therapyart #sasurvivor🖤 #fyp

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Open Doors

TikTok post — 2026-02-04 Open Doors: This is a place inside my mind that I go when I need to feel safe and hide. It is quite a Dissassociative state and leaves people hurt making me quite the difficult one to love. It is so automatic I catch myself doing it all the time. It is peaceful and isolated and safe. #AICreate #natureheals #cptsd #healingjourney #fyp

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Dancing Photons

TikTok post — 2026-02-04 Dancing Photons: This one is just a beautiful moment that sticks in your head. I swear I can hear the water running. I love the light and the way it dances with the music. It is a deep breath of the love of God through creation and reminds me a lot of Maui. A moment of Zen that I can use again and again. #AICreate #fyp #therapyart #cptsd #momentofzen

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Catch and Release

TikTok post — 2026-02-07 Catch and Release: This one is very powerful, both with my healing and with letting go. Harboring hate and anger and rage and vengeance in your heart is very toxic. After 40 plus years I want to let it go but it is so impossible not to feel this way. This content is another attempt to let all that anger go, which is more healing than anything else if it works. #therapyart #fyp #creatorsearchinsights #mentalhealth #motivation

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Something Old. Something New

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Let it Flow

TikTok post — 2026-02-07 Let it Flow: I have a light in me that shines the brightest when no one else can see. The irony of it fits both this song and image. How does my soul shine? By opening up and letting the love flow without any control. like freewheeling down the hill on my bike. I know my Gen X fam understand that analogy. I am learning, very slowly, that I have to let go and let God. Similar to the way the Light is received and transformed in this content. #fyp #creatorsearchinsights #motivation #healingmusic #mentalhealth

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Oceans Apart

TikTok post — 2026-02-08 Oceans Apart: Spirituality is looking externally and/or interally to connect with the higher power that created us. Religion organizes ways to do that ritually, which is really good and really bad at the same time. Just depends on how you are treated, especially if you are a kid. Some need both to find their way, some do not. They both help us to focus on longing, connection, and the promise of reunion despite being physically separated by distance. #healingmusic #motivation #creatorsearchinsights #fyp #musictherapy

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Till Death Do Us Part

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How Does it Feel? I dont think an image could so immediately define

TikTok post — 2026-02-08 How Does it Feel? I dont think an image could so immediately define CPTSD like this one. The healing and the awakening is slow but it is working. Just gotta keep working the process. Grounding, processing, and integration under the belief system of boundaries, accountability, and grace. This is what it feels like to be stuck in the abuse and abandonment of my childhood. #healingjourney #fyp #therapyart #cptsd #creatorsearchinsights

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Asgardian

TikTok post — 2026-02-08 Asgardian: For the music, IYKYK. For the message, be your own asgardian in this life. #fyp #cptsd #healingjourney #healingmusic #creativesearchinsights

TikTok post — 2026-02-08 Driftwood: Looking back on my life I see the subtle moments are the most important. The simple ways our paths cross and shift and journey is beautifully heartbreaking. This song is as sad as this painting and I love every tear it brings as that is healing too. #fyp #healingmusic #motivation #cptsd #therapyart

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Land of the Lost

TikTok post — 2026-02-09 Land of the Lost: To my younger self this is what it feels like to be abandoned in the abuse. Another way of expressing and exposing myself to this place, another step in the healing journey. I can comfort that wounded little boy and I will. None of the other people involved will say sorry but I will sing him to sleep with it. #healingjourney #healingmusic #fyp #therapyart #cptsd

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Nostalgia

TikTok post — 2026-02-09 Nostalgia: As a 13 year old kid with a skateboard in 1988 this band and album left a permanent imprint on the inside of my Walkman. They were so good to skate to and they were the anti establishment band of the time. There is not much I really like to remember about those years except the music and the skating or bike riding. Flying down Euclid or Mountain avenue I still dont know how I didn't get hit or crash. Then I had a kid, and all I have felt ever since was fear. Crazy how life and trauma responses change over time. #therapyart #cptsd #healingmusic #fyp #healingjourney

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I Know My Truth

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TikTok post — 2026-02-12 Normalizing Nerves: It always helps to share the things that help us heal along the way. This is information I can never get enough of. Although it helps me Normalize the more I read it, I still dont feel very normal. So sharing this one with everyone so we can all stop defining ourselves by this condition. #cptsd #fyp #mentalhealth #healingjourney #wellness

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Old Dog. New Tricks.

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Under the Surface

TikTok post — 2026-02-13 Under the Surface: The war inside my head has raged on for as far back as I can remember. If I am being honest, my self hatred and self loathing made me toxic inside. I said the worst things to myself, almost like I had to match the level of verval and emotional abuse to being abused as a kid. As I have gotten older and continued to fracture from my fear based mindset, my inner critic became too toxic to bear. Through trauma therapy, I silence my inner critic but it has been a battle that has required lightning to strike more than once. Most days now, he has no voice but when I trigger it still is my first reaction. I have at least been able to develop the ability to keep him underwater and I can destroy him quickly so the risk is mitigated. #innercritic #selfdestruction #healing #fyp #creatorsearchinsights

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Collateral Damage

TikTok post — 2026-02-13 Collateral Damage: This is another great Peter Gabriel song, so fitting for our modern day too. There is an ignorance, brought on by the safe distance from consequences, that we as human beings will develop. The only factor that will enlighten us is Collateral damage that finally hits home. Just like the warmongering politicians, our Ego dissipates to the scale of Collateral Damage we suffer. It took me 20 years of marriage to finally realize I was the problem and answer. I created a lot of Collateral damage through my ignorance of my CPTSD. My family looked like a village that had been bombed to hell. At least now the War is over and we are rebuilding at last. #fyp #creatorsearchinsights #healing #wellness #cptsd

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Age of the Innocent

TikTok post — 2026-02-14 Age of the Innocent: There is a side effect of trauma and parts therapy. As you heal, the more in touch you get with that little child inside. The more you heal the more you believe just like that little boy used to so very long ago. I have healed enough to increase my faith in God and in myself. It is as close to innocent as I can get and it feels good. #cptsd #fyp #creatorsearchinsights #healing #selfbelief

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Attachment Issues

TikTok post — 2026-02-14 Attachment Issues: The process of healing my attachment issues has been as painful and as physically scary as the panic attacks I had to face when I remembered the worst of the abuse. It was a slow and painful death that was beyond intense in ways I was not prepared for. I had to feel that abandonment again and it broke me like it did back then. But the me that it broke was just a protective shell. The issues are dead and gone as long as I am able to ground and process first. #cptsd #sasurvivor🖤 #healingjourney #fyp #creatorsearchinsights

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Nebula Eyes

TikTok post — 2026-02-15 Nebula Eyes: The most important thing I have learned about love is that it is something that gets better the longer it lasts. Tough to say but eventually you learn how to connect yourselves correctly and create real intimacy. If not it doesn't last, it sucks but you can only work on you. It takes a lifetime either way. I know what universe my eyes are on. #fyp #healingjourney #HealingJourney #marriage #creatorsearchinsights

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End to the Fantasy

TikTok post — 2026-02-15 End to the Fantasy: When I was a kid I used to play alot of make believe games where I went through a portal to another dimension. Someplace safe and somewhere with mountain stream and trees. It was quite the fantasy and far from my reality. Reality collided in middle school and put my make believe into hiding, along with my reliance on anyone to protect me. #creatorsearchinsights #fyp #healingjourney #sasurvivor🖤 #cptsd

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Alien Nation

TikTok post — 2026-02-15 Alien Nation: One of the most common characteristics of CPTSD is feeling alienated. Feels like you are from another planet or dimension, it really doesn't matter because it feels the same. This trait stems from abandonment and when unhealed it makes life hell. But healed it becomes a power like this content reminds me of. #abandonment #cptsd #healingjourney #fyp #creatorsearchinsights

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TikTok post — 2026-02-23 Accept: When I finally started being able to observe my thoughts I was in shock like the Church Lady. I was so cruel to myself without even thinking twice about it. I have spent a lot of time working on this and I am learning that my inner critic is not aome I can bury. It is an attempt to connect with my Self for one reason or another. This content is me learning to have a little fun with my inner critic. #innercritic #HealingJourney #selfgrowth #fyp #creatorsearchinsights

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TikTok post — 2026-02-27 Poltergeist: This hits me on multiple levels so going to try and keep it simple as I cannot do complex well when I am triggered and trying to process. This life is a journey back to the light, so it hits spiritually first. But then it hits with finding my way home at 19 and the many times I have had to find myself and redefine myself and transform myself in my life so far. It also hits with relationships, the long term ones including the in and out peeps. With other people, we have to be the Prism in their picture blocking out their dark to see the light. Just requires empathic and empathetic abilities. Love is the light. Lastly, it hits cause my CCR was one of my Dad's favorites. Used to listen to them a lot with him as a kid. Sometimes all it takes is a song to make you feel alive. #fyp #creatorsearchinsights #cptsd #transformation #healingjourney

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TikTok post — 2026-05-02 Right Side Up: I’m aware of how I’m participating in it. And that awareness doesn’t make me perfect. It makes me responsible. In a way that isn’t heavy. In a way that isn’t about blame. In a way that gives me agency. Because if I can see it, I can start to shift it. Not by forcing it. By staying present with it. By noticing the moment before the reaction completes. By allowing the feeling without letting it dictate everything that comes next. That’s what I’m learning. Not how to eliminate the reaction. How to relate to it differently. And that’s where the real change is happening. Because I’m no longer just caught in it. I’m starting to see it. And in that space, even when it’s small, even when it’s brief, something opens. Something that wasn’t there before. A way to respond instead of react. A way to stay present instead of being pulled completely into the pattern. A way to exist in the moment without needing to control it or absorb it completely. And that’s new. Not easy. But real. Because for the first time, I’m not just one or the other. I’m not just the hammer. I’m not just the nail. I’m something in between. And that’s where change becomes possible #fyp #HealingJourney #musictherapy #sasurvivor🖤 #therapyart

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Letting it Go

TikTok post — 2026-05-08 Letting it Go: I believed I was broken, a permanent stain That the fault was my body, the pleasure, the pain That a kid in confusion could somehow decide That the harm done to him was a choice deep inside But the older I get and the deeper I see There’s a war in the lies that were spoken to me And the boy that I buried beneath all the blame Was surviving a storm that he never could name. #fyp #HealingJourney #cptsd #therapyart #sasurvivor🖤

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Reflector

TikTok post — 2026-05-08 Reflector: I used to think being an empath meant I felt more than other people. That I picked up on things others didn’t. That I carried more because I was more aware. It felt like both a strength and a burden. Something I couldn’t turn off. Something that made certain things harder than they seemed for everyone else. I would walk into a room and feel it. The tension. The mood. What wasn’t being said. I didn’t question it. I adjusted to it. Shifted my tone. Changed my posture. Matched the energy without realizing I was doing it. It felt automatic. Like that was just how I connected. But the more I’ve gone through this, the more I’ve started to see something different. It wasn’t just awareness. It was adaptation. I wasn’t just feeling what was there. I was responding to it in ways that weren’t always conscious. Taking it in. Holding it. Sometimes carrying it longer than it was ever meant to be carried. #CapCut #cptsd #HealingJourney #fyp #empath

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Empath is a Reflector

TikTok post — 2026-05-08 Empath is a Reflector: At the core of this song and chapter in my story is the realization that empaths are created through horrible trauma. So are sociopaths, kind of insanely dynamic how something evil doesnt just create evil. It also create a level of love beyond what we are often "born with." Complex PTSD when healing lends itself to just that, combining hypervigilance and emotional recognition to have compassion and understanding. For others and yourself, but this requires healing. #empath #fyp #HealingJourney #cptsd #therapyart

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Adverse Childhood Experiences

TikTok post — 2026-10-08 #fyp #cptsd #HealingJourney #complextrauma #adversechildhoodexeriences

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Hypervigilance

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Harmony Screams (Remix Version)

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